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Sunday, July 19, 2009 ( @ 9:14 PM ) as i was walking to school, a thought hit me i dont think id consider myself as -light LIGHT rather than a glow-in-the-dark sticker. absorbing from the light source for without the light source i cannot glow. my brightness is incomparrison to the true SOURCE of light. and so all i can really do is to absorb some of it and try and glow in my own little way. there are many other glow-in-the-dark stickers all around but the further they are from the light the less they absorb the light and the softer their glow. or maybe not at all for they are cradled in the gentle possessive arms of darkness the galactical ceiling constantly pulls away from the light and it tugs gently at the sticker willing it to go away from the light fight fight fight for it never stops pulling and pulling and if the fighting just pauses for a second the sticker might get sucked up into a black hole that promises not spit it out. fight fight fight 0 comments Thursday, July 16, 2009 ( @ 6:57 PM ) and as i read the email, i came across.. 'This week we had two funerals in Bethany! Each death reminds us of how frail and fragile life is We are also reminded of hoe brief a life we have on earth!' and i instinctively thought,'that sucks.' but then i caught myself. why does 'that sucks?' death is a part of life. why should we be afraid of death if we are going to die anyway? life IS fragile psalms 90: 4 For a thousand years in Your sight Are like yesterday when it is past, And like a watch in the night. 5 You carry them away like a flood; They are like a sleep. In the morning they are like grass which grows up: 6 In the morning it flourishes and grows up; In the evening it is cut down and withers. life is short God is forever if we ideally,live up to 60: 21900 days letsee. im 18 this year:6570days 15330 days left. wow. a lot of time? not including the time to sleep-if i sleep 1/3rd of the day the time ill spend awake would be : 10220 days. the unseen clock ticks away. someone commented that i was like a 'teacher.' i wonder what that's suppose to mean. maybe im not as 'fun' anymore, but its not all about fun. its living a fulfilled and purposeful life and that is something that 'FUN' can never give me. cuz where my treasure is, there my heart is there also. 1 cor 13:50: Now this I say, brethren, that flesh and blood cannot inherit the kingdom of God; nor does corruption inherit incorruption. 51 Behold, I tell you a mystery: We shall not all sleep, but we shall all be changed — 52 in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. For the trumpet will sound, and the dead will be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed. 53 For this corruptible must put on incorruption, and this mortal must put on immortality. 54 So when this corruptible has put on incorruption, and this mortal has put on immortality, then shall be brought to pass the saying that is written: “Death is swallowed up in victory.” 55 “ O Death, where is your sting? O Hades, where is your victory? 56 The sting of death is sin, and the strength of sin is the law. 57 But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. 58 Therefore, my beloved brethren, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that your labor is not in vain in the Lord. this is of the idea of putting off the old man(corruptible) and putting on the NEW man.(incorruptible) the STING of death is SIN. and the STRENGTH of sin is the law. but we are FREED from the law. and we can have victory(: challenge is to be -steadfast -immovable -abounding in the work of the Lord(good works) --------------------------------------------------------- *chuckle. jewel: you need a new name forest: huh. why jewel: new person mah. and its not becoming of you. so what name you want? mathew mark luke or john? forest: i like psalms jewel:HMMM. nah we cant call you psalms. thats odd. how bout mathew? forest:nah. i know.. GABRIEL jewel: hey thats a name of an angel! forest: I LIKE. COOL*writes on notepad. -'my name is now gabriel' 0 comments ( @ 6:13 AM )    <3 the kids at the cityXDwokay lilian here's my dad's photos(; this is me like last year i think   6 months ago when i went back. aw pops<3and now.. HAHA athalie took such cute photos of my parentsXD they look stressed.  0 comments Tuesday, July 14, 2009 ( @ 7:28 AM ) kelly, she sleeps next to me lilian is next to me but i dont know where she disappear to one, only took one photo of her=/  KELLY<3 DAYI<3 href="http://s282.photobucket.com/albums/kk241/morphius129/perth/?action=view¤t=IMG_6913.jpg" target="_blank"> NATALIE<3
during the dorm competition, she won the messiest bed. HAHAH  WITH PRISCILLA<3 href="http://s282.photobucket.com/albums/kk241/morphius129/perth/?action=view¤t=IMG_6917.jpg" target="_blank"> ESTHER<3 (; <33 href="http://s282.photobucket.com/albums/kk241/morphius129/perth/perth2/?action=view¤t=IMG_6920.jpg" target="_blank"> DEEELAN<3>
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 FRANK!
 happy birthday Charlene(;  ERIC and CHRISO<3 LEI our camp commandant=D
 ENOCH MY BUDZ   AMANDA<3 i kept calling him sam-from transformers cuz i thought he looked like the transformer dude YU<3   GUMP! i mean forest. hahah. argh. im going to think up of a new name for him  yu refuses to take a picture so i stole her face
     JOSH! LOL  LIONEL! MISH<3 JONNO! ELIJAHHH<3>       
    ALDINE AND CHRISSY=D <3
i was just thinking, i wanna name my children with 'Christ' in the name too! so maybe, CHRISTal. HAHAH cool now. like jewel-crystal-CHRISTal and if its a boy, CHRISTole. wah. or Christone. without christ, its just 'one'. errrrr.LOL dont steal ah                TIM<3>
 crazy high school musical child     HAHAHAHA i like this photo
  YAY dylan's a camwhore too=D YAY    i LOVE this. HAHAH. tim IS the master chef. he live eat breath food  LOL. nice.
      GUMP! (forest) HAHAHAH chriso teach us one. its not what it looks likeXD
 
  hahahahXD the crazy people picture<3 href="http://s282.photobucket.com/albums/kk241/morphius129/perth/perth2/?action=view¤t=IMG_7035.jpg" target="_blank"> then as nat left, everyone was trying to steal her
 MISH is DA bomb man. her kendo teach her how to carry a million tons and run like a ninja during a kidnap.  yeah i took a sniff.LOL
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HAHAH pamela taught me some chinese. however, some are not nice to put up here.heh how to speak chinese in 5 min(read out loud): 1.thats not right- ......................................................................................SUM TING WONG 2.are you hiding a fugitive?-...................................................................HU YU HAI DING 3.see me ASAP- ........................................................................................KUM HIA 4.small horse- ............................................................................................TAI NI PO NI 5.did you go to the beach?- .....................................................................WAI YU SO TAN 6.i think you need a face lift- ...................................................................CHIN TU FAT 7.its very dark here-................................................................................. WAI SO DIM 8.i thought you were on a diet-............................................................... WAI YU KUM CHING 9.this is a tow away zone- .......................................................................NO PAH KING 10.our meeting is for next week- ..........................................................WAI YU KUM NOA 11.staying out of sight- ...........................................................................LEI YING LO 12.he is cleaning his automoblie- ..........................................................WA SHING KA 13. your body odour is offensive-..........................................................YU STIN KI PU 14.great -................................................................................................... SU PAH LAWL. so ending this blog post, i really just want to give a big shout of THANK YOU! to the commembers LEI MICHELLE LIONEL AND JOHNNO who worked so very hard for this successful camp. it touches my heart to see their devotion, we really do take it forgranted sometimes and expect a camp to work out fine or to be fun. mish was telling me that as they sang 'dare to run' on the second night, it was a moving song, not only because of everyone else consecrating their lives once again, but because it brought back old memories and now there is 4 left from the previous group. old memories where there were a bigger group of people standing behind the pastor dedicating their lives too. it then reminds me of bethany, but more personally, my sunday school class. there were 14 of us who came back when we were 14, a strong group of us. some came in and out but there was a strong core group. i dont know if anyone remember but we even went on stage and sang spirit wings during one of the youth conferences. i reckon if we were to do that now, no one could even hear us because there wont be enough people. its not about the numbers really, but its just painfully obvious how true God's word really is. only one out of the 4 seeds that dropped to the ground grew, there was that MULTITUDE following Jesus, but who WERE the ones who truely stuck by the Lord? mary, peter and? where was the rest? and as the years go by, the numbers will just get less and less. i pray that i would be that remnant, but i am VERY aware that ANY OF US, are in danger of falling away. sin ensnares us surely and with much stealth its scary. “Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.”Hebrews 12:1-2 endure. ofcourse i miss my friends. the ones that i wont see anymore i grew up with them after all i wonder how they are doing in life i wonder if they are happy i wonder if they remember the promises we made i wonder if they remember me i wonder if they remember God as i look at the group camp photo, i smile at the promising young people and the heart of love and faces of joy reflected through but my heart wonders how many people will there be left and who will remain in a decades time. maybe not even me. and that scares me. its a sad reality but true. endure. cling. 
onward Christian soldiers fight the good fight of faith till we return and God says,' well down good and faithful servant.' and till then im going to fight with all ive got. do we dare? 0 comments Monday, July 13, 2009 ( @ 9:09 PM ) to encourage him also because he did so terrible for his first term tadaaaa im going to have a free period with him too so exciting. as i was helping him plan, im going to read mathew with him. im actually quite scared because yesterday auntie Chris taught me something, to not be too quick to be a teacher. james 3-'1 My brethren, let not many of you become teachers, knowing that we shall receive a stricter judgment. 2 For we all stumble in many things. If anyone does not stumble in word, he is a perfect man, able also to bridle the whole body' yeah im scared to be a teacher. it is responsibility with a capital R, and those who knows me know that i am not very responsible. moreover, i fear i may blaspheme! ARGHHH and have a greater judgement 0.0 but then i thought about it, if i wasnt going to be there and for fear of such things, who IS going to help him? i guess i must step up and continue to seek in the scriptures SO MUCH MORE and only impart what i have truely learnt and applied in my life. i guess my role is not so much as the TEACHING but of the encouraging and pointing him back to the focus-God all the time. and pointing him to pastor Chris too thats why we are never running alone. this morning people taunted him about being a christian 'yeah sure youre christian now whateverrr' and stuff like that. 'HAW HAW you go to church campXD was it gooood?' gump;' jewel see theyre laughing at me, do something about it.' i kept quiet and continue to sip my bottle of water, and smiled at them gently. gump turns back to them:' yeah im christian now okay? its good for me.church is good for me.' we read mathew over a cup of coffee during break, gump said,' you know this is much different than when i first read it for history sake. i feel different now' 'thats cuz you are reading IN faith.' 'thats true' hahhahaa walking back to school, his group of friend shot comments at him. 'ooh where is jesus? is jesus holding your hand?' 'is he next to you? now?' gump looked at them and replied,' you know, you guys are horrible. thats why you guys should go to the church camp too.' HAHAHHAHAHA *they continue to mock him gump: why dont you make fun of jewel? *group pauses and considers me. 'nah shes not stupid like you' i paused and wondered WHY he continued to hang out with them. seriously. what kind of friends keep putting you down? and so i excused myself because i cannot stand to be in the presence of those who mock God so. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- today as i was reading my bible on the train, a chinese girl was reading the bible too. when she noticed i was reading the bible, we broke into a smile and introduced ourselves. 'not many people read the bible these days, it is sad.' she said, i agreed and we made small talk about where we came from and stuff.. its a great feeling(: ' i dont feel so alone anymore haha' she said as she was leaving 'course your not' (: 'see you around hey' then there were those around us who watched what was going on. i caught sight of one of them looking at us and the expression was one of confusion and interest. this was probably going through his mind. '-wow bible freaks XD maybe thats how christians says hello' but its okay(: as i was talking to gump also, he says that i talk too much about God things that i freak the other people even if he doesnt mind. 'so? hmmm. and thats going to stop me? snort.' gump:'you know, life is a journey.everyone doesnt know where they are going actually' jewel: but we christians know. we are going to Christ. gump: yeah, thats true. i believe so a song entered my head and i went ahead and blarred it out loud: i know where im going and WHO im going to meet i have a FRIEND name Jesus waiting there for meeee He has given me something that ONLT He could give He gave his life in payment so that i could live 'thats nice. thats true' and with that i sang a tune all the way to school: i have decided to follow Jesus i have decided to follow Jesus no turning back no turning back no man go with me still i will follow no man go with me still i will follow... no turning back no turning back the world behind me, the cross before me no turning back no turning back 0 comments ( @ 7:22 AM ) Long post below. The delay in a post is not because i have nothing to blog about, but just TOO much to blog about. Well for starters, God TRUELY is MY DELIVER<3> psalms 3:3- But you o Lord, are a shield for me, My glory and the One who lifts up my head. I cried to the Lord with my voice, and He heard me from His holy hill.’ So the story begins when i got out of the bus and waited for the train at cannington station and i casually glanced over to a group of girls, abo girls.GANGSTA I think they caught me looking at them and i quickly walked into the train. The four of them sat opposite me and were really loud and crude. Just as i brought out my Bible-study notebook and started reading through when one of the girls jumped up from her seat and plopped next to me saying,’ yeahh! Im going to move OVA so SHE can see me EYE TO EYE.’ I realized she was talking to me and my heart went ‘ARGHHHHHHH’ Ive heard some stories of attacks from these gangster-girls. So i continued to flip through my pages, ignoring her. She moved closer to me and slanted her head to see what i was trying to read. I felt like it was t rex looking at his prey, and i froze, not daring to move. She muttered loudly about wacking something as i concentrated on the text infront of me. -i couldnt think properly though, i felt like i was going to get beaten up. Like they were going to grab my bag and my book. But then again, i thought that if they grabbed my book maybe theyd come to know the Lord. And as i continued to think i almost chuckled to myself in the midst of the scary intense situation. How awesome would it be if through beating me up, robbing me up, this girl would come to know the Lord? Hahahah She continued to mutter away to her friends, and i continued trying to be invisible, -not showing any sign of response and fear,flipping the page from time to time. Inside, i was PRAYING LIKE CRAZY, then the verse,’He who is in me is greater than he who is of the world.’ And i thought, if i had Christ, what can man do to me? Peace peace peace And so they got off at the next station and when the train moved off and i was saved, i smiled goofily to myself and PRAISED THE LORD! WOW. Hahahah In Sunday school we learnt that God specially listens and watches the righteous. Psalms 34:19- many are the afflictions of the righteous, But the Lord delivers him out of them all.’ ...vs 21- and those who hate the righteous shall be condemned.22-the Lord redeems the soul of His servants, and none of those who trust in Him shall be condemned. If i have such a loving, protective, POWERFUL God, why should i fear? If God is for me, WHO can be against me? And if they are, so what? Snort Aw i Love God, He’s awesome. I was just telling natsie that sometimes i catch God’s sense of humour. He tells us, Child, ‘Trust in Me in all your ways, and lean NOT on YOUR own understanding, in ALL your ways, acknowledge Me, and i SHALL direct your path.’ But many a times, we dont trust in Him and we continue to fret and go crazy with our worry’s when God promises to take care of us. For example this situation, God probably wants to see my reaction and bring a bit of excitement to my life (hawhaw) that when i react most naturally, would it to be overwhelmed with fear or with a sense of peace, of Trust in the Lord. I was scared, but im Glad my response was to PRAY and Trust in God’s plan whatever it is. And when Natalie almost was unable to enroll, the day before she could enroll, her visa miraculously became approved and she was able to go to uni. God likes suspense man. Also like how i ALMOST was unable to come to perth in feb and was about to cancel my air ticket BUT everything worked out in the end. hahhaXD And then if i was unable to come to perth, my friends would not be able to come to church, and i would not have met natalie=0 who brought her family and friend to church, and Dayi who wants to come to church and John who wants to seek baptism,Chris ong would not have refocused on his faith, And i would not have made such great friends in bethel and help them along their journey of faith when one is feeling down, and if i only had come NOW, on top of everything above, gump would not have found the Lord and not have a new life IN Christ. Watching his struggle to accept the faith and to accept Christ. In God’s perfect plan, someone closd the gate earlier on the Tuesday night because gump was ready to run away from the camp because he felt so horrid. on the third night gump finally broke through a barrier and wanted to accept the Lord. the immediate effects the next day was evident when he had a lightness in his footsteps and a smile that lingered on his face through out the day unlike the previous two days. ps:i would just want to clarify that the reality of situations is that it IS easier for overseas students to bring friends to church. because we dont have anything permenant and we do not have a set cycle of life, therefore lost and alone, a church is awesome to go to because there, there is good food and people care for you.(: I could almost hear the angels in heaven singing and rejoicing. I sat infront of him and as he sang, i could almost finally understand why God LOVED to hear the singing of the repent, the singings of the righteous. Wow just looking back im amazed to see God’s perfect plan and to trace His presense in EVERY SINGLE STEP OF THE WAY, whether i was aware of it or not. But then the humbling thought when i look back once again, it is FIRST AND FOREMOST, not because of I. WITH OR WITHOUT ME, God would have called these people out anyway in other different ways. Maybe theyd find a different church to go to, or someone else would have led them to the Him, in which ever way, God does NOT need me. But then, the fact that He USED me. Wow, that is truely an AMAZING thought. that He CHOSE me to be that vessel, and to be used for such a sacred and awesome job. Wow. Wow. Wow. My heart is TRUELY filled with thankfulness. Moreover, im AMAZED to see how well it all fits in. Its not BECAUSE of me or whatever, no way, but its because of the lives of the other people in church that has touched them, and that they can SEE Christ through their lives. And its not ME. I went up to auntie Chris and told thanked her for praying for me, for God hears the prayers of the righteous. Ofcourse i know that others are praying for me and without that, i would not be where i am and used so wonderfully. Looking at God’s perfect plan, God brought certain people in my life and touched my life and thereby guiding to where i am now. Without them, maybe many of my friends would not be in church. And then i start to wonder, what would it be if God was not there and had not touched THEIR lives? The whole course of history would once again been warped, like a butterful effect. Truely. I would not change anything. Gump once said,’ i feel wierd here, like i dont fit in, because people here are too nice. Its odd’ But you know what, ive asked that question too. Few years back when i was the dark and snooty child i was, i asked pastor Mitch who constantly tried to reach out to me, and tried to care for me ‘why do YOU care?’ And pastor Mitch replied,’ God cares for you and Loves you, i Love and care for God, i Live for God, my life is not my own and i serve Him, which is why i am here for you, which is why i care for your soul.’ To be honest, all the times that pastor charlie, pastor Mitch, teachers and commembers have met up withme, i cannot remember MOST of the lessons taught. I can remember some, but i cannot rememeber most. But its not about what you learnt through what they said, but i saw that they were so devoted to Christ and had so much joy and love which i do not have. And i wanted that, i really did. I wondered what was so great about this Christian God, (even ater 17 years of my life)and i thought i KNEW what it was all about already. But head knowledge is so different when you read the bible through glasses of faith. Seeing is not believing. Believing is seeing. Another thought that hit me. Christians who do not live as Christians and chose to live in sin, and fall away, not to be judgemental but salvation is questioned. That is why the scriptures tell us to WORK OUT our salvation. As heb 6: 4- For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted the heavenly gift, and have become partakers of the Holy spirit, 5and have tasted the god word of God, and the powers of the age to come, 6 if they fall away to renew them again to repentance, since they crucify again for themselves the Son of God, and put Him to open shame.’ It is IMPOSSIBLE, if we have truely recieved Jesus, to fall away. The thought that if we do so, we crucify Jesus once more and SHAMED Him. All this time as i struggled within myself to deal with my sin problem with My own strength. The Holy Spirit is NEEDED so badly and only through the Holy spirit, can it free us from the bondage of flesh. Rom 8:2- ‘the Law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has made me free from the law of sin and death.’ The Bible is completed, no more books added, no more words added. 2 cor 3:2- You are our epistle written in our hearts, known and read by all men.’ WE are LIVING epistles, as God continues to write in our hearts.For God to CONTINUE writing in my heart, it has to be a CLEAN heart, a heart that has to be constantly renewed. And how? In obeying the WORD, we PURIFY our souls-1 peter3. Am i even LETTING him write? WHY NOT? Its not going to be easy.and many a time We cannot see the truth because Satan Blinds us and veils our sight. 2 cor 3: 16-nevertheless when one turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away.’ I wont forget about my past ofcourse, but i wont let it CAGE me.to drag me down, that one day i may be the righteous, may be like Christ. Vs 18- but we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being TRANSFORMED into the same image, from glory to glory, just as by the spirit of the Lord.’ That i can be TRANSFORMED, only THROUGH the spirit, THROUGH Christ, not with my own strength, a new nature given by Christ because i am justified by faith. And THAT is righteousness. To BE LIKE Christ. To be a christian. 0 comments Friday, July 10, 2009 ( @ 7:08 AM ) for a sheep has returned to His Shepherd. and the beauty of it is that i helped in that, i helped in being that vessel of Christ the angels in heaven are rejoicing now and my heart is about to burst. there is no words to describe truely none all i can say is, thank you God, My loving God. My awesome AWESOME sweet God to God be the GLORY. thank you for showing me such wonders 0 comments Friday, July 03, 2009 ( @ 8:36 PM ) =D will be holidaying from my blog see ya blogy the title of the yc is called,'the righteousman' i cant WAIT=D its going to be so applicable and needed specially in our generation, in all generation la WHO is the righteousman? what is the righteousman? why? yipeeee 0 comments Wednesday, July 01, 2009 ( @ 3:49 AM ) the fairest and beautifulest of them all *chuckle<3 the only woman who would leave a brandnew lv bag on the floor for her dawg do eat<3   HELLO THIS IS MY BESTIE, HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY BABE.this picture is like, when we first met each other-ish sec 3. sigh, good timesXD see how much weve grownXD bestie's in troubleXD we are the trouble twin manz. HEH    then the time when i cut your fringe after cutting my fringe.*chuckle   then the crazy pets AHAHAHA yeah im your crazy bestie<3 dear bestie,im so sorry im not there for your 18th birthday i love you VERY VERY MUCH and im SO glad that ive found a bestfriend in you i know that youl always have my back, just like how I WILL ALWAYS have your back. i pray for you and know that God has brought you into my life to bless me with your friendship. sorry to sound cheesy but its TRUE man(: and i hope i have blessed you too youre growing up into a HOTTIE dude becareful, your a lady now, remember to always be gracious and be strong even though im not there for you, God is, My God is. and He is your God too(: HE is there for you and He hears your cries love im sorry im not there for you=( i miss you so much though aw babe=/ im sorry you are hurting, but balraj, you know you are such a special kid, your such a special friend, dont forget that okay? people out there love you, i love for one love you very much, id do anything for you hey if you needed it.know that okay? you cry, i cry you laugh i laugh
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